Love Letter to the BIG GUY

Dear Lord, 

The cursor has been blinking on my screen for a good 3 minutes. Truth is, I’m stumped. I write so effortlessly almost everyday, addressing words to strangers who I’ve never ever met. In a matter of minutes, my sentences form into paragraphs and before I know it, a cohesive entry is created. But today, I feel inadequate. Somehow writing for strangers seems much easier, and writing to the ONE who I love the most seems like such a daunting task. How does one even begin to address the most awesome being in the universe? How do you even find the words to match your beauty and splendor? But then I’m reminded that there’s no need to impress you with deep and flowery words, there’s no need for me to put up a front and appear holy and perfect. You know me more than anyone else, you know me more than I’ll ever know myself.

Today is the 2nd day of the year and the 2nd day of my engagement. The first day of the year always seems to be the diva, well-celebrated and attention-grabbing..when in fact, it is the 2nd day that is usually the most important. The 1st day brings momentum while the 2nd day brings REALITY.The promise of the new year is exciting and scary, but knowing that I have you to guide me makes me brave enough to face anything.

I woke up extra early this morning with clarity and a heart pounding heavier than ever, knowing that I’ve done well in choosing a man after Your own heart. The true joy comes not from knowing that I am happy, but that I am happy and that I made you happy too by honoring you and choosing the person you set aside for me.  

I woke up this morning with a rush of realizations. I realized that this bed will no longer be my bed and that in a few months I’ll be waking up next to the love of my life. This house will no longer be my home because I’ll be building a new home with someone special. And the one thing that is truly mine (aside from my fingerprints) is my NAME, and will soon be hyphenated and shared. Dear Lord, just as the name I’ve long kept has brought honor to my family, I pray that the new name I carry shall be a name I will be worthy of as well. That I may bring honor to my husband and truly deserve the tag of “wife” with his last name next to mine. 
So this is how it feels to be engaged. It’s an eternal fuzzy feeling in your chest. It’s like I’m back in the third grade, nervous and excited, raising my hand frantically because I think I know the answer to my teacher’s trick question 🙂 May halong kabag-kaba-kilig!!! ♥ ♥ ♥ So in luuuurve! Thank you for saving the BEST for me. Patrick is a true testimony of humility, strength and faith and I learn so much from him each day. And more than anything, he loves me for me, he loves me for the person I am today and the person he knows I will blossom into in the future. And I absolutely adore every thing about him! Oh and thank you Lord, that even my shallow desire to marry someone physically attractive was answered. You know me so well! Alam mong mababaw ako minsan at kailangan gwapo yung mapapangasawa ko..even that you were generous enough to add to an already long list of good traits! Please bless us dear Lord with healthy offspring, all CUTE and MABANGO. Pag mabaho at gusgusin, cancel nalang po yung order namin. Hahaha, just kidding. We are excited to start a family, in whatever shape, size or form. 

2011 was the year I truly understood the meaning of UNCONDITIONAL LOVE thanks to my mom and dad who never left my side. They have been my constant source of strength and encouragement. I know it’s corny and many people my age won’t dig this, but my parents are my two best friends in the world and I am thankful I can talk to them about anything and everything. It is because of their friendship and their marriage, that I believe in TRUE LOVE. And I understand the value of having a partnership that is selfless, honest, and anchored in YOU. It’s nice to see how much they love Pat as he is indeed the answer to their many prayers.

Many see you as this BIG FELLA way up in the clouds, all high and mighty, always too busy running the universe. Although all these may be true and there really is no denying your sovereign power, I know you now more intimately. You are a father who wants to give only the best to his children and a friend who listens intently. You feel what I feel, you know my deepest darkest secrets. You are my hiding place, my peace, my happiness. Thank you for blessing me with more than I could ever deserve!!!

Love, Patty

My dear friends, there’s a beautiful country song by Rascal Flatts that my friends Dani and Jay shared with me last week. I’m not much of a country music girl, but as soon as I heard the lyrics I DIED. It’s almost as if it was written for me and Patrick. And I’d like to share the words with all of you today on this glorious 2nd day of 2012 🙂

Bless the Broken Road
I set out on a narrow way many years ago
Hoping I would find true love along the broken road
But I got lost a time or two
Wiped my brow and kept pushing through
I couldn’t see how every sign pointed straight to you

Every long lost dream led me to where you are
Others who broke my heart they were like Northern stars
Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

I think about the years I spent just passing through
I’d like to have the time I lost and give it back to you
But you just smile and take my hand
You’ve been there you understand
It’s all part of a grander plan that is coming true

Now I’m just rolling home
Into my lover’s arms
This much I know is true
That God blessed the broken road
That led me straight to you

49 Responses to Love Letter to the BIG GUY

  1. Congratulations on your engagement, Patty! Know that a lot of us “strangers” share your happiness. May the BIG GUY keep blessing your life in more ways than one. Keep spreading the love and happiness 🙂

  2. I’m not even done with my morning coffee and here I am crying like a baby! 🙂 Congratulations again, Patty (and Patrick)! It is indeed true that in faith we will receive everything good that’s due for us.

  3. Hi Patty! God Blessed the Broken Road was the song played as I was walking down the aisle. Ive been following your blog for quite sometime and it is truly exciting and mind blowing to find your one true love! Best of luck! 🙂

  4. I CRIED!!!!!!! :(( Happy for you and I hope you’ll have a happy, fruitful, and blessed new life with your soon-to-be husband!!!!

  5. Congratulations Patty! I have been recently engaged and I never expected the “high” you feel after getting engaged… It’s wonderful! God is such a great matchmaker! Stay happy & glowing!

  6. You are such an inspiration, Patty! THANK YOU SO MUCH. You are a blessing even to a stranger like me. I’m sincerely happy for you. 🙂

  7. Congrats to you both! 😀 This made my morning even brighter. This entry made my heart feel incredibly light. Thank You 😀 I pray that God will bless you and your future husband with amazing opportunities and a household of love and contentment. God bless!

  8. You are our Father’s child and as His, you deserve only the best. Patrick surely knows how to keep a rare gem! Praying for the blessings that will unfold in your new journey with him. Best wishes and congratulations to both of you! 🙂

  9. I am truly blessed by your walk with Christ. I am so happy that you have witnessed and personally experienced His love by receiving such wonderful blessing of finding your one true love. May you continually bless and inspire your readers as you face another chapter of your life.

    All the best and happiness for this year and the years to come 🙂

  10. Favorite!

    “I woke up extra early this morning with clarity and a heart pounding heavier than ever, knowing that I’ve done well in choosing a man after Your own heart.”

  11. Such a wonderful post,Patty. It’s amazing how the series of events lead you to the man God chose to be your lifetime partner. Truly, good things happen to good people:) you’re such an inspiration, Patty 🙂

  12. my reaction was….OMG! my favorite blogger is getting married!I’m so excited for you Ms.Patty.
    Congrats! & God Bless You Both!

  13. Thanks for this inspiring post, Patty! Every word is really meaningful, and I feel how it comes from your heart. I am so happy for you!
    I really really hope to see you in Barcelona and finally meet the other Pat! – Meg V

  14. Congratulations Ms. Patty! I’m happy you found the one for you… please please please pretty pretty please share naman the proposal story haha! 🙂

  15. I’m glad you’ve met your destiny, I’m so inspired to wait for the right one, That Man who will ask me from God 🙂

  16. congrats patty and patrick! that’s also one of my favorite songs =) im not also into country music but that song is one of the best songs out there =)

  17. oh wait! so you can add GWAPO in your wish list? hahaha

    adding now!

    GWAPO. boom!

    pati mga anak na cute at mabango! boom!

  18. Congrats on your engagement…I love this blog. I believe that the Big Guy really knows who to give to each one of us. Congrats again ang may the good Lord continue to bless you and your fiancé.

  19. hi patty! your posts like this one are the reasons why i follow your blog 🙂 i may not know you but i really do believe you are one nice and kind lady and you deserve all the blessings from the Big Guy 🙂

    congratulations on your engagement and i wish you all the happiness for the next few chapters of your life 🙂

    keep blogging and keep inspiring girls like me 🙂

  20. Cracked me up on the physically attractive part. But yes, girls can be like that sometimes. 😛

    Now seriously, your journey to love is inspiring. 🙂 I mean, nothing is impossible with Him. If we fail and lost, it’s because we “deserve it” – not because we did wrong but He knows best and He knows we deserve the best.

    I feel so happy for you both even if yeah, we’re strangers. 🙂

  21. Congratulations!
    It is really inspiring and assuring of what the BIG FELLA could do. You are one of the many testimonies of His love.
    “That God blessed the broken road
    That led me straight to you”.. Wow!

    God bless you more!

  22. I’ve been waiting for this moment in your life to come. I am an avid reader of your blog since 2009 and I truly love your humor and wit. Congrats Ms. Patty! You truly deserve all these blessings! I am very happy for you! 🙂

  23. You’re such an inspiration..Believing again after countless heartaches is just so inevitable after reading your blog. Congratulations! I am utterly happy for you..:)

  24. God is awesome! And thank you all for even just taking the time to share your reactions, greetings and for being happy for us! Every single comment is read and very much appreciated by Patty, and by me as well… Thank you God, thank you everyone! 🙂

  25. Oh wow I bet your fiance didn’t realize he’d be making all your blog followers happy as well with his sweet NYE proposal! I’m so happy! Congratulations 🙂 I’m telling all my friends even if I don’t think they know you / read your blog like I do. 🙂

    PS Sinasabi ko rin na kailangan cute at mabango ang mga anak ko pag dating ng panahon, hahaha

  26. I have always loved this song.=)
    The North Star and all.

    Congrats, Patty and Patrick!

    Jane Mangalus

  27. you are truly blessed..God is always there ready to listen to our desires and gives it at the right time..Congratulations to your engagement! I’m definitely a fan! 🙂

  28. congrats and best wishes Ms Patty. you deserve all this and more:)we are so happy for you and your fiance!

  29. I am sooo happy for you my dear girl crush☺ Your love story is a testimony that there’s really joy in waiting for God’s time☺ Indeed, when you let God write your love story, you can rest assure that it’s worth the wait☺ Congratulations!

  30. Congratulations Patty! Your post is so inspiring <3 nakaka in love pa. The song lyrics you posted at the end is like cheese frosting on red velvet cake (hehe gutom). I find myself reading this post over and over. . . oh, followed your blog. saw that you’re on your 666 and being superstitious haha I thought I’m destined to break any bad omen! bound your way. Have a great year sweetie 😀

  31. hi Ms. Patty,
    i’ve been reading your blogs po and i am always encouraged by it. i know po na God blessed you when you were single and i believe that God will bless you even more in your married life. God bless you po and your fiance. and i pray na God will bless you beyond what you could imagine. ♥♥

    ” But Success in marriage does not come merely through finding the right mate, but through being the right mate.” ~Barnett R. Brickner

    cute din po ung song na “Two words, i do” by Ms. Lea salonga! (.n____n.)

  32. Congrats Ms. Patty. and Bless the broken road is a song that never fails to touch my heart. “Every long lost dream led me to where you are
    Others who broke my heart they were like Northern stars
    Pointing me on my way into your loving arms
    This much I know is true
    That God blessed the broken road
    That led me straight to you” Goosh! such beautiful words!

  33. I’m so blessed to have read this post. My heart is kind of broken and reading your blog post makes me want to love again and be God’s little princess. 🙂

    God bless your love! <3

  34. congrats patty!!!
    i love the lyrics of the song.Nkakatouch!!! I just wonder kung maganda din ang melody?!
    Anyway this post is beautifully written. Lahat naman ng post mo eh well written kahit yung mga jokes, pero this post is one of my top 3 fave.
    Congrats again. If you put God first, sabe nga eh– you can never go wrong! Good luck not just on your wedding but also your marriage!


  35. congrats to my favorite blogger in the world – Patty! So happy that you find “the one” thru Patrick. Give us naman tips/advice on how to overcome painful break ups. You know for all the people na sawi. Hehehe. 🙂